Thinking back to my early childhood, there are only a few vivid memories left that I can recall. One of these involved a seemingly innocent craft I made in Christian … Continue reading Noah’s Ark – Childhood Skepticism
Most of you have been here since I was 14 years old, in my first year of high school. When I had first been introduced to the REAL world wide web, and had a limitless amount of possibilities at my fingertips. I used my presence to showcase my creativity and my love for Survivalcraft and cats. As time went on, I used my presence to vent and spout illogical rants, and it proved just how damaging mental illness and a lack of self control could be. You were there for all of my embarrassing ramblings, and you knew way too much about what was going on inside of my mind.
Now that I’m trying to put that behind me, I begin to sit here and think about the things I’ve done and said and wonder what part of my brain actually thought that was a good idea. Seriously, my brain has failed me!
As I continue to right the wrongs in my personal life, I can’t help to think about all the atrocities I put my blogging/Survivalcraft acquaintances through. That is why I’d like to issue a formal apology to everyone who probably had secondhand embarrassment from my cringe-worthy articles, and those who I’ve made promises to that I couldn’t keep, and those who I have treated wrongly. Apologies can’t repair everything, and they probably can’t repair broken trust or reputations, but I’d like to fix things in the only way I really can.
With that being said, I’m back to doing the thing I originally came here to do – talk about Survivalcraft. Except this time it’s on Go Survivalcraft.
Jonny and I have rebooted the site, but we have a different goal in mind, and a different method. I want GSC to be a helpful tool. An enhancement for the average player. That is why we are all about tutorials and community content this time around. The site isn’t currently active, although you can still visit it, but it will hopefully be in the future. We put lots of work into developing a quality design and bug free site. (see, going into programming classes has its perks!)
I am very excited about this endeavour, it’s taken a lot of planning, and hopefully it will pay off with a more educated and happy community. See you soon with more updates on our progress!
Too many interests, inadequate time in the day, not enough mental capacity! …right?
Now that I’ve got things 100% sorted with college, I (as well as everyone around me) found some peculiarity in my drastic change of career plans. Aeronautics? But didn’t you go to school for music composition before? And didn’t you originally apply as a computer science major? Do you really know what you want in life?
Well…yes. The truth is that I want multiple things. I would be incredibly happy with a career in any of those fields, and a few others as well. I believed it was in my best interest to choose one that would offer me the most overall happiness and financial stability.
But that has left me wondering what is going to happen with my other passions. Becoming an airline pilot, as I aspire to do, requires so much time and effort. There is so much to learn, that it seems it wouldn’t be feasible for me to succeed in my pilot training whilst learning more about computer programming and putting effort into making a videogame, and also composing music. This is even before I get a job. Once I get a job as a pilot, I’ll be working for long periods of time and traveling a lot. My schedule then will be even less flexible.
It makes me wonder – will I feel unsatisfied someday? Will I wake up and wish that I had actually pursued computer science? Or music composition? What will I say 50 years from now? That I can fly Boeing 737s but the world might have missed out on a brilliant composer, or innovative developer? Should I try to do it all? What if it’s too much?
I guess that’s the scary part of adulthood. You never really know. You just have to trust your instincts, jump right into life, and hope you come out on top.
My instincts tell me that being inside the cockpit just feels right. Everything about it fascinates me like nothing ever has before. But my instinct (and experience) also tells me that my creativity is an integral part of my life, and without it my life would be dull and meaningless. So I guess I’ll just have to find the right balance of it. I guess I’ll have to just jump into it and see if I can rise to the challenge, and still have a functional life. Hopefully doing so doesn’t cause me to have a brain overload…
A lot has gone on in my life since the long hiatus so let me take the time to summarise some things.
1. My political views have changed entirely. That being said, I am working on a political post that may cause a bit of controversy, so stay tuned for that.
2. I got accepted to college for music composition, changed my mind, and will be going to Kent State University this fall, majoring in aeronautics. I am hoping to either join the US Air Force or become an airline pilot (preferably the latter). Planes have been a passion of mine since I was young, and I have decided that this is probably the best option for me career wise. I will enjoy what I’m doing, and I have a better chance of making a decent living while I’m doing it.
3. I haven’t given up music composition though. I still compose music when I have the time, and I have been drastically improving since I started. Perhaps I could compose music professionally on the side, but even if that doesn’t work out, I still have a great hobby. Here’s my latest piece if you’d like to check it out. https://soundcloud.com/kriakitteh/elkmires-minstrel
4. I am maturing as an individual. I have overcome my mental illnesses. I realise that I said some ridiculous things on this blog in the past, and I wholeheartedly apologise for that. I feel like a completely different person from who I was just a year or two ago, and I can only hope that I continue on this path to success.
Thanks for reading! I know it’s been a while, and though I may not post frequently, I’m still here :-)